With my first baby, I definitely struggled with postpartum anxiety and depression and this makes you question everything you're doing as a new parent — especially how you feed your baby. At our first appointment, our son's pediatrician said he was losing too much weight and we'd have to supplement with formula. I felt like a failure. Then again when I had to go back to work and I wasn't able to pump enough to maintain my supply and we had to supplement again, I fell back into that mindset of not being enough for my child.
It's so easy to attach self-worth to ability to breastfeed as a new mom, but trust me when I tell you that you are the best possible parent for your child when you care enough to feel this way and that there is nothing wrong with needing help, needing supplementation, or even needing to wean and feed formula entirely.
By the time I had my second child, I was combination feeding from the beginning and there was so much less stress and pressure involved. I wish I was gentler on myself the first time around.